the support that you didn't get

so anita mentioned this as one of the topics i needed to write about.

she was talking about my music and art, and the lack of reception i got from my two physician parents. it was rediculous. but yeah, i guess i can definately talk about this, my parents just don't see the things i do as an artist as useful, only wasting my time i'd guess, and perhaps they also think it's absolutely rediculous. like they just don't think it's worthwhile to like do any of these kinds of things. but that's hrutful to me because they're like my impulses, my ideas, and the like, and you can learn to make money doing anything. there are many different ways to think and live, it's a matter of honing whatever it is you've got into something workable and doable. but that which i needed my parents ans sister never were interested in giving. thats the thing about it whichi never really liked, and i dont know if they just are incapable of being supportive and the like or if they just are completely disinterested and never really had any kinda of a drive to like learn about something which perhaps they werent already an expert in. my mom walks around depressed and my dad a workaholic. meanwhile im here trying to make something of myself and they piss in every victory i make. its completely crazy and definately brings you down when you're trying to work your way up.