how people avoid the topic

its strange how those parents of mine stay quiet upstairs. they rarely speak and it doesnt seem right. but that's how they seem to do it. and i don't really know why. but that's it. and honestly, there's not much sense to it. i'd rather then talk openly about their dysfunction than just move on and pretend like none of it exists. and honestly that's more or less what i'm thinking when it comes to these guys. it seems kinda fuckin rediculous how they just kinda go on day to day and now things seem to be getting out of hand but honestly i think they avoid the topics of our past. my past with those people is a seldom discussed topic. i spent well, i was born in 86 and through 91 we remained in england. then in 91 i moved to chicago with om and sister and this si where my father and i parted ways. but in 93 i moved back with my dad, and this is when my mom and sister remained. they came back in 94. and in 95 we came out to ohio. so like, for 2 years, i missed my mom, and the year before, i missed my dad. and i missed my sister a year too. and then when i was 17 i moved off and missed my mom dad and sis til probably about 20. then i had them around for awhile but sister 16 turned 17 and moved out as a freshman in college. worked awhile in the mall and just seems miserable to me today. but thats just how she is and honestly thats fine with me. if thats how she's gonna be then that's that. but it's terrible because there's so many things we could talk out, and relate to each other over, like how things used to be in the past, the good tmies, the bad times, and the things that we regret, and the things that we hold onto. those're the things that we have to talk about, our shared pasts ARE our lives together, and when those dont enter the conversation then life becomes very banal and boring. i like to live in the past as well as the future. talking about past happenings is one of the joys of shared memory. but these people refuse to partake, and i find myself out of people who share my experience. these are the only people ive got. and its not enough for what i need. i need people who can actually talk about things. and they dont talk about anything. its crazy in that sense.