subjects:

things that i should be writing about:

movin to america
dealing with the kids in chicago
your aunts house
or more like your aunt
basically raising your little sister
being locked up inside of a basment
being picked on in school
being stared at all the time
how much you miss england
how that one teacher would treat other kids like uh, like he wuold get excited for other kids and then when you go and do something like a performance he would go oh i must've not and gone and seen it, or something like that
the support that you didn't get
how your parents are psychiatrists, but yet they help other kids instead of their own
how you were left on concrete by a friend
how your friends completely like, left you when a good friend of yours passed away
how noones helped you get through this
not even your parents
how people avoid the topic
the reaction of your dead friends mom
the situation between you lauren and damien
how your parents prevent you from going to boston
how lauren used you after vivek died
how lauren gave heroin to vivek in the first place
how she uses drugs to get what she wants
people at the open mics, like, at andymans how he's always like, he's different.
how people view you just by your skin color
how it was during the 9/11
how people bring racism into video games
how people are making kids pay for the pirate bay thing
i guess how many problems i have that i guess im pulling you into
and my little btich fits
how i can't really accept anything that i do wrong or rediculous
how your parents um are kinda still dealing with racism from like thirty years ago
how you were basically taught how to i guess avoid people by not being allowed to bring anybody over - well more like... just because of how your parents reacted to new people, you not wanting to bring anybody over
how your parents react to new things
how your parents come down here and clean the basement whenever we leave
how people treat you differently compared to how tey treat me like at chipotle and kinkos
how people are so conservative
how people compare you to themselves
how lazy people are
how discouraging people are
how we're still here in dayton in your parents basement
how your sister asked youf or 200 dollars for her birthday and got pissed off when you said no after her parents said no
how you've never gotten a paying gig, even though you've been playing music for like ever